I am thinking about quitting on a daily basis now. Just to think that I’ll be here for the next three years kills me. Every week feels like forever. I don’t want to come into a job where I’m basically walking on eggs shells. One mistake, and so many reports. Thousands of dollars lost. The stress, the daily anxiety. I knew this was a high stress job when I came in, but one year later… I don’t feel amazing about having this job. Yeah, I have an interesting job. But, there is a disconnect. I shouldn’t dread the day everytime I open the door. The only reason I’m still here is because I don’t want to waste all the time my coworkers spent on training me. How am I going to survive the next two years? I’m just going to be a robot. I’ll do my best because it’s my job and it’s what’s required of me. I mean, my personal view doesn’t fit with our mission. My supervisor knows that I don’t feel proud to have this job. But, pretty sure she doesn’t know how I really feel about it. Yes we’re helping a ton of people, and I’ve met a few families who donated and have received these gifts. But, I just nod and smile when they tell me. Inside? I feel nothing. A coworker views me as being the next supervisor. Give it to someone who deserves it and is passionate about the mission. The responsibilities I deal with now, is already pushing me.